Friday, March 29, 2013

the wind rises

i can't wait for Hayao Miyazaki's new movie to come out. i absolutely love all of his other movies, so the wind rises shouldn't disappoint.



clean start complete

in october of 2012 i took part in the clean start project that was put together by blue7 (my favorite local shop). the challenge was to buy and wear a pair of raw denim jeans for 6 months. sounds easy enough, right? the catch was you had to wear your jeans at least 6 days a week and not wash them. the germaphobe in me cringed and the thought of not being able to wash my pants (especially if i was wearing them everyday), but after the first month it became part of my morning routine. i really enjoyed getting to put together outfits based around my jeans and watching as the jeans changed and faded with wear.
i chose nudie jeans in a skinny cut since i had worn them before and kind of knew what to expect as far as wear went.

this is my month 0 picture. brand new jeans!

at month 2 i was starting to see some little crease lines forming on the backs of the knees and fading on the front of the jeans.

by month 4 a belt was a mandatory part of my outfit since my jeans had stretched out to the point of being super saggy.

yesterday i took my month 6 pictures and turned in my jeans to be washed for the first time. in april blue7 is having an art show with everyone's jeans on display. i can't wait to see what my jeans turned into after being washed.

if you want to check out the rest of the group of participants their photos are on blue 7's blog

i'll definitely be participating in clean start again next year.



*listen to what i'm listening to here

Thursday, March 28, 2013

undying love

even though it doesn't really feel much like spring, the warmer months are fast approaching. i've spent the last few days lusting over dresses, shorts, and tank tops so i figured i'd show you some of my favorites. as you are all probably aware of by now, nasty gal pretty much has my undying love and devotion, so these items are of course all from their store.

i'm not sure, but these might be the most perfect black pumps for summer. i can't wait to buy them since they will amazing with pretty much everything i own. you can find them here

this hat is probably one of my summer pale girl essentials. you find it here

i love lonely lingerie so much and i love that nasty gal carries it. i can't wait to add this bra and panty set to my collection. you can find the bra here

since i've been wearing the same pair of jeans everyday for the past 6 months as part of raw denim project i am more than ready to stat wearing dresses again. these two are some of my favorites.

you can find this amazing dress here

and you can find this dress here

okay, so those are just a small portion of the stuff i'm crushing on from nasty gal. they also have an amazing blog that's definitely worth reading.



*listen to what i'm listening to here (ok, so the video for this is's just scenes from labyrinth)

*in other news: today is the last day of the clean start project (1 pair of raw denim jeans worn everyday for 6 months without washing), but more on that tomorrow.

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

a disease of the mind, it can control you

i feel like a monster.



*listen to what i'm listening to here

*still a little zombied out this week....

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

the anatomy of a melancholy mind
-an abnormal state attributed to an excess of black bile and characterized by irascibility or depression



*i think melancholy is such a lovely word. it doesn't seem like it should be something associated with sadness.

*listen to what i'm listening to here here

*i feel like a zombie this week. no amount of sleep seems to shake the fogginess from my brain. the persistent cold weather isn't helping much either and it has ruined some of my plans to shoot outdoors.

*i'm working on some alice in wonderland type stuff that i should have up soon

Monday, March 25, 2013

sleeping beauty

i'm jealous of the moon
because she knows all of your 5am secrets

and your sheets who get to touch
every part of you as you fall asleep
while i keep a close eye on this empty pillow
waiting for your weight to keep it warm

but the sun,
he is luckiest of all.

when you're half asleep, groggy
and painfully unaware of how beautiful you look
he kisses your lips with light.



*these aren't my words, but they remind me of you for some reason.

*listen to what i'm listening to here (definitely reliving middle school with this one)

*i meant to have something a little more exciting for today, but i was so tired last night when i got home i only wanted to lay in bed. last night was my sister's birthday party (round 2 of 3). her birthday is like a week long celebration. we ended up at a german restaurant, which had some amazing beer that i was more than happy to sample. the food was amazing, but it was so heavy that, combined with the beer, was like an instant nap.

*i'll have more new stuff tomorrow. also, i'm pretty sad that i missed the new episode of walking dead, but hopefully my dvr didn't fail me and i can watch it later this week.

Friday, March 22, 2013

your eyes lie

so it's been a little bit since i've written about stuff i'm crushing on. i've been watching for new stuff on your eyes lie for awhile and i finally found some items that i'm pretty sure i can't live without.

i love this slouchy sweatshirt. the design of the feathers is so cute and the red around the neck adds just enough bright color.

there's something about this t-shirt that i love, i'm not sure what exactly, but still a must have

and finally, this adorable pipe smoking bear.

there's definitely more stuff from your eyes lie that i'm crushing on, but these are my top three.

tonight is my sister's birthday party so i'm not sure if i'll be able to shoot any new stuff tonight, but definitely tomorrow i have stuff planned.

happy friday dear.



*listen to what i'm listening to here (the video is a little ridiculous, but oh well)

Thursday, March 21, 2013

thinking of you

thinking about you is like pulling teeth...

...and i'm running out of teeth.



*something a little darker today to go with the dark dreams i had last night. you don't belong in my dreams anymore

*when i was younger i used to be terrified of my teeth falling out (this was after i lost my baby teeth)

*thank you so much to the guy who provided the teeth to me. i plan on many more shoots with them.

*my hair is from here

at night

you never really
know someone
until you've read
what they write
at 3 am when
consumes them
but does not
destroy them



*this week seems to be dragging at an unbearable pace.

*i'm working on some new stuff that i should have up tomorrow and the next day.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

finite bees

when most i wink, then do mine eyes best see,
for all the day they view things unrespected;
but when i sleep, in dreams they look on thee,

and darkly bright are bright in dark directed.
then thou, whose shadow shadows doth make bright,
how would thy shadow's form form happy show
to the clear day with thy much clearer light,

when unseeing eyes thy shade shines so!
how would, i say, mine eyes be blessed made
by looking on thee in the living day,
when in dead night thy fair imperfect shade!

through heavy sleep on sightless eyes doth stay!
all days are nights to see till i see thee,
and nights bright days when dreams do show me thee.



* listen to what i'm listening to here

*my arms were so sore that i kind of held off on shooting for a couple days to let everything heal and for the swelling to go down.

*my hair is from here

Monday, March 18, 2013

Walking dead and honey bees

I've been rewatching seasons 1&2 of walking dead (which has caused great procrastination in my work). Also, today was my tattoo appointment. I'll have better pictures once the redness goes away.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

where we almost fell in love

and while tracing the creases underneath the bedsheets where we almost fell in love, i realized; you would have left eventually.



*thanks to my friend for helping with this.

*i would have had more pictures today, but i became frustrated with them since they weren't turning out how i wanted

Tuesday, March 12, 2013


another lovely french movie that is one of my favorites.

i meant to take pictures last night, but i was feeling sick. instead my friend came over and we ate pizza and watched walking dead. i think the evening of rest helped since i'm feeling much better. i'm looking forward to the warm weather this week. it's going to actually feel like spring hopefully.


Monday, March 11, 2013

don't bother to write

bye bye beautiful....

don't bother to write.



*i've written you thousands of letters in my mind, but i still don't have the courage to put my thought on paper and send them to you.

*this is the other wig that i got. it's from

*my bra is from lonely and my panties are from urban outfitters

Sunday, March 10, 2013


i'm sure she's something so lovely

and sweet and i'm sure you'll destroy her

the same way you destroy me.

i'm a fool to be falling,

i am so far removed

and i don't belong to you,

but you kiss me like i do.



*after a small hiatus i am back to shooting everyday. sometimes i just need a little breather to collect my thoughts and plan my shoots.

*i received this beautiful wig from it's so much fun to wear since i haven't had long hair in several years. i was surprised at how real it looks and feels and since it's heat resistant i can style it any way i want.

Friday, March 8, 2013


I received 2 beautiful wigs in the mail today. I can't wait to take pictures in them tonight :D


Wednesday, March 6, 2013

these are a few of my favorite things

my most loved pairs of shoes (and my fabulous j. peterman skirt)



*listen to what i'm listening to here

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

new tattoos

yesterday i scheduled my tattoo appointment. this will be my first tattoos on my arms. i'm getting little honey bees on each arm.

i'll have pictures up next week of them.



*i'm working on some new stuff and scouting a couple of new locations for a couple of outdoor shoots since the weather is starting to warm up a little. i feel like i'm starting to stagnate a little with my current set up so i'm excited to try some new stuff.