Thursday, January 31, 2013

what she was becoming

there once was a girl who dreamed of becoming a part of the forest. she would become rooted to the ground...stationary, but forever changing.



*last night i dreamed i was a forest nymph. i was trapped in my tree form until the moon came out at night to free me.

*my bra is from lonely hearts

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

the body

a pretty little song to start the morning with.

i'm shooting new stuff tonight and should have it posted either later tonight or tomorrow.



Tuesday, January 29, 2013

she fell from another world

last night i fell from the world of dreams where we were together. when i awoke, i was alone.



*you say you miss me, but we both know it's not true.

*listen to what i'm listening to here

Monday, January 28, 2013

she wanders as she sleeps

there once was a girl who wandered every night in her sleep.

as she drifted off into the land of her dreams, she shed her worldly body.

she would watch herself sleep for a brief second before taking her leave.

then off she would go....

...for a few precious hours of freedom.

all the while knowing she would soon have to return to the prison of her waking life.



*ast night i felt myself leave my body behind. it was the most freeing feeling i've ever experienced. it seemed so bittersweet when the alarm went off this morning.

*listen to what i'm listening to here

*i feel betrayed by someone who said they cared. it was my mistake for trusting you, dear.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

to the land of dreams

when the pain from emotions becomes too much, i subside in the world of my dreams.

here, i can be happy and there is no pain and no love.



*sometimes i feel like my dreams are the only escape from my emotions.

*my insomnia has come back in full force. i was only able to achieve an hour of sleep last night and it was very fitful sleep, so i'm writing to you from the tea house near my apartment in hopes that the caffeine will revive me.

*listen to what i'm listening to here

*my dress is from free people

Saturday, January 26, 2013

set sail

every night i set sail into the land of my dreams.



*happy saturday! i hope you're doing well dear. i'll probably spend this day snuggled in bed since my insomnia is back and has left me feeling slightly groggy. i do hope to get some new pictures up this weekend though.

*listen to what i'm listening to here
*also, my sweater is from sheinside

Friday, January 25, 2013

grow like oceans

when she closed her eyes an ocean grew around her.

so she built a boat and filled it with her hopes and love.

as she watched the boat drift away...

...she dreamed of the one it would reach.



*last night i dreamed that you were calling to me, but when i woke up there was only silence.

*dress- cheap monday from nasty gal

Thursday, January 24, 2013


i wanted to answer some of the questions that i get a lot on my deviantart account. it seemed a little easier to answer them here all at once than trying to answer them individually.

Q: why don't you shoot nudes anymore?/will you shoot nudes again?
A: well, pretty much the reason that i don't shoot nudes anymore is because i was getting bored of it. i wanted to be able to expand my portfolio into other styles and to try something different. i don't have any plans on shooting nudes again, however, a lot of the photos that i've been shooting i usually will model topless although nothing is really seen.

Q: where do you come up with the "fairy tales"?
A:the fairy tales usually come from dreams or thoughts right before sleep. sometimes i base them around interactions with certain people and how those interactions make me feel. i like the idea of fairy tales that don't end in happily ever after.

Q: how do you make the levitation pictures?
A: to make the levitation pictures i shoot just a background picture with no models in it. next, with the camera in the same position and with the same exposure settings, i shoot one with the model and the object they're balancing on. in photoshop i layer the second picture over the first picture and add a layer mask. then i paint over the item that the model is laying on to remove it. i feather the edges around where i painted so that they blend, then i use the burn tool to add a little bit of a shadow under the model. there's lots of lovely tutorials on youtube that explain the process a little better with step-by-step instructions.

Q: do you have facebook/skype/msn messanger?
A: while i do have a skype and facebook i don't ever use them. i have skype for my online classes and that's all i ever use it for. i like to keep my facebook fairly private and don't accept friend requests from people i've never met in person, i use it mainly to keep up with my family members and very close friends. however, i always respond to notes on my deviantart or emails.

Q: what type of camera/equipment do you use?
A: this one is a little embarrassing since i don't use any sort of professional equipment. i shoot with a nikon d8000. the lighting that i use on all of my pictures is either natural light or whatever lamps i have available. i particularly like using the light cords that most people use for hanging paper lantern lights. they're super cheap and you can easily change the wattage and colour of the light bulbs. plus since they only consist of a socket and a plug with about 6' of cord they're very easy to move and position and take places. right now, the setup that i use is a light cord suspended from the ceiling, with a 60 watt soft white bulb with a white paper lantern shade over it. the shade diffuses the light enough for most projects, but sometimes if i want it softer i will put a piece of white fabric over it.

Q: do you have a boyfriend?
A: i'm not sure why, but this is a very frequent question. no, i don't currently have a boyfriend.

Q: do you model for other photographers?
A: i have never modeled for anyone aside from one friend. i'm never quite sure how i feel about working with other people since i really like being in control of everything that goes on during shooting. i like being able to set up the shot, pose, look at what i just shot and make adjustments. however, i recently responded to an email from a local artist who was looking for models and people to collaborate with. i figure that it will be a good experience and i always feel like i learn something from working with other people.

Q: do you take commissions?
A: no. i don't like taking commissions because i feel like i never get them completed soon enough and if i'm shooting something very specific for someone else, i feel like i'm missing out on shooting something that i want to shoot.

sorry this was so wordy, but it kind of needed to be :3 i hope that i was able to answer the questions clearly and that now you know a little bit more about me and my shooting style. if you have any other questions please, please, please don't hesitate to ask. i love getting emails and comments from you guys.

i'm working on some new stuff tonight, as well as trying to catch up on my school work.



*this is the last of the cloud pictures for now, i promise.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

lover's breath

i whispered that i love you....

...but the words caught in the air and hang over me like a cloud.



*more clouds. they seem to fit my current state of mind.

*listen to what i'm listening to here

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

she had her head in the clouds

there once was a girl who had her head in the clouds.

she spent her days snuggled in their loving embrace.

they made her feel protected from reality... she could continue to live in the world of her dreams.



*listen to what i'm listening to here

*sometimes i feel like i'd rather live in a constant state of day dream. in my dreams, love, you and i can be together and be happy, but this isn't a dream.

*i'm working on some new stuff and have hopefully (fingers crossed) found a model to help me out on some stuff, but we'll see.

Monday, January 21, 2013

what is real?

"what is REAL?" asked the velveteen rabbit one day..."does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?"

"Real isn't how you are made," said the skin horse. "it's a thing that happens to you. When someone loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real."

"does it hurt?" asked the rabbit.
"sometimes," said the skin horse, for he was always truthful. "when you are Real you don't mind being hurt."

"does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or is it bit by bit?"

"it doesn't happen all at once," said the skin horse. "you become. it takes a long time. that's why it doesn't often happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept.

"generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. but these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand...once you are Real you can't become unreal again. it lasts for always."



*this is a beautifully sad passage from the velveteen rabbit by margery williams. it was one of my favorite books when i was very small. if you haven't read it, i highly recommend it. even though it's a picture book it still has a lovely message about what it means to be loved by another.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

she was royalty in her dreams

she sat wrapped in the robes of her dreams.

a beautiful, white veil she would hide under forever.



*listen to what i'm listening to here

* i made myself another crown last night while i was watching tv. so far my weekend has been lovely and relaxing. i miss you dear.

Saturday, January 19, 2013

creator of magic

she conjured magic....

...where there was no magic before,

and released it into the world.



*listen to what i'm listening to here

*i'm working on making some changes to my apartment decor this weekend. i'll have pictures next week. i've also been working on some new levitation pictures that i can't wait to share with you.

Friday, January 18, 2013

dreamer of landscapes

there once was a girl who built landscapes in her dreams.

when she awoke a tiny forest had sprouted around her.

she watched as the tiny animals from her dreams frolicked through the forest.

she wondered what else would grow from her dreams.



*listen to what i'm listening to here

* sometimes when i dream i feel like i'm waking up, but i'm in a different place. sometimes this is lovely, sometimes is very confusing.

*i started class this week, it's ok. i've been trying to maintain a good balance of shooting and doing class work, which is working out so far. i love my french class, although i'm very nervous to record myself speaking for our first test.

Thursday, January 17, 2013


i thought i would do something a little different today and post an outfit picture.

leggings- romwe
top- gap
booties- jefferey campbell
jacket- nasty gal
hat- gift from my grandmother

i plan on doing more dedicated outfit posts in the near future since they're kind of fun. i hope you enjoy.



*listen to what i'm listening to here

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

we looked like giants

i dreamed that i was a giant....



*listen to what i'm listening to here

it's very cold here lately.

Tuesday, January 15, 2013


every night was a masquerade party in her dreams



*listen to what i'm listening to here

*leggings- romwe
*bra- forever 21
*mask- hand made

*last night i dreamed i was in the middle of a masquerade circus. it was so beautiful, i didn't want to wake up. the only reason for leaving my dream behind was knowing that you would be laying next to me when i woke up.